F.R.I.E.N.D.S

It's at times when somehow something happens that makes you feel like deja' vu. Something bad happened once before and it scarred you deep enough but you grit your teeth, clenched your fist, took a deep breath and chose to forget it. Reason? The other party is your friend. Dear enough that you chose to wipe it all clean and forget the situation and since then, you realise that maybe you are not good enough of a friend. You try to buck up. You become more supportive of all he does, you, in short, try to make him feel your presence and hope that he appreciates you as a friend as you do to him. Time passes of course and it is always like this... you forgive once, and they expect the same should the same situation happens again. Upon confrontation, it seems, that what's done is for your own good. Why be so self-righteous? Why be a saint? Should you consider your friend hurting you as helping you? To make you realise? Maybe it does not work that way for all people. Who are you to judge as to who is right or wrong? Were you even there to see? If it was possible, you wish that you could have him live in your body for a day and let him feel how you feel. Maybe then he would not do what he did... but who knows? Who dictates who is the victim in any given situation? People act the way they do because they have different opinions and would undoubtedly feel that what they did is right. Sometimes you just wonder what your friendship is worth, if it could be measured, how would you fare as a friend?
How would I fare as a friend?
For me, a friend is simple yet everyone tend to complicate it. A friend is simply someone who stands with you, stands for you and stands you. Simple as that. Why all the *behind the back* talk? This may be the second time I am asking this on my blog but have I not done enough as a friend? Please... if in any way I can improve, do enlighten me. There must be some serious fault with me if this could happen to me again and again or as I questioned earlier, has friendship lost all its' worth? Friendship... I realise, no matter how long it lasted, could only take a minute to break. Is it worth it? Is friendship worth sacrificing for anymore?
Do friends talk bad about you in front of others? In a comical way, everyone laughs. Add a hint of seriousness to it, you will see sneers and jeers from them. And so again, how much is my friendship really worth... if it even has a value to it.