Colourful CNY

Chinese New Year is over, well not officially but since the holidays are over, CNY has nothing to offer anymore, for me at least. I would like to first and foremost wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year, although a little late, but you know how it goes, better laid than takde. CNY has always been hailed as a joyous occasion and true to that, it has provided me many happy moments and for that I am thankful. Collected many Ang Pows and met many relatives, although many of them I do not give a shit about, but hey, it's CNY, time to forgive and forget and con small kids' money. Gambled a little bit and won about 350+. All in all, a good new year and made better after I have met my special someone whom I am loving more with each passing day.

Many things happened during the last weekend and it was really full of shit. Many people were hurt and of course I have succumbed to many attacks, verbal and physical. I tried to be reasonable and more often than always, I am viewed as the unreasonable one. I do not deny the fact that I have wronged many people but is it not a norm for most to push the blame to others? Does it make them feel better? Of course it does. If I am the only person to bear the entire fault and all the fingers pointed at me, it would somehow relieve them off their wrong doings and in turn make it better for their conscience. FUCK YOU ALL!! Have I not proven my friendship to you guys? And now that shits happened and since it is something that has already become a fact, just live with it. Now you guys wanna run around talking about me doing all these fucked up shits and all. I can accept the insults and all the blames that you guys throw at me but leave those who are innocent out of it. Even before you guys start to bombard me with all those bull-crap that are weighing you guys down so that your shoulders would feel less burdened with guilt, if you do somehow feel it, look at yourself in the fucking mirror and tell me if you really see a fucking angel with no fucking fault and played no fucking role in all this drama. This is supposed to be a happy occasion and I sincerely see no problems at all but you guys chose to put in your two cents and fucking blow it out of proportions. You guys listen to one side and start to judge... is that not shallow? Should you not be more responsible and ask for the truth or the events that took place if you feel that you should fucking bury your nose into the whole scenario? People involved may be your friend/s, even close one at that but please be fair. I have always treated you guys as friends and if this is how you wish to return my friendship, then thank you, thank you so very fucking much. If you do not feel happy for me or give consent to my relationship, not that I need you guys to fucking approve of anything, then just keep it that way but do not launch any shits this way please. Even after all that had happened, I have been fucking patient. Do not take it for granted. Seriously do not take my patience for granted. I have my commitments and I believe that you guys do too and so we will play our part and it is that simple. Do not fucking get artistic and make things over-complicated. It has never been something difficult to start with but you guys seriously managed to make a fucking mountain out of a fucking molehill.

Yet, I am happy. I feel content. Thank you to my girl for staying by my side and never once gave up on me even after all these shits that happened and I owe you the biggest apology for not being able to take care of you as I should. I left you open to all those attacks but it shall not repeat. Thank you to my good friend who understands and tried to help. May not have turned out the way that you thought it would but it is very much appreciated. Thank you guys too for allowing me to know what you guys really think of me and showing me who you really are. I have never been a good judge of people but I am sure that I could not go wrong with the two people that I thanked. Hope that time will really dilute the misunderstanding… hahaha misunderstanding… Til next time, take care.