Concoctions

Deliberate or not, sometimes people can say the things that would pierce right through your heart and you feel so much pain, to the extent that it is physical. People may get mad at you for being unhappy, mad at you for trying to be sincere when talking to others, mad at you for trying to make things better just by shutting up so that you would not say the wrong things, mad at you when you try so hard to put on a happy face but you just could not do it. The tables have turned. Haha, GOD does have a great sense of humour, granting me all the courage, strength, confidence and determination that I have always wanted but it was the very same combinations that lead me to my fall. Those attributes, it seems, are the concoctions to create a whole new different element called EGO. I failed in controlling the Mr. Hyde of me and it took over. It made me blind. I could not see what I needed to see, what I should have seen. It made me deaf. Every piece of advice given to me had been ignored, every sob fallen on deaf ears. It made me numb. I could not feel emotions, compassion, I became inhumane. Existence of justice became apparent. Vengeance is sweet indeed. Unfortunately, I am at the receiving end. The wrath and fury has finally found its way through my door. I have played my last card, I lost and I am at the mercy of the victim.